Although I do not now have a choice. My baby girl was concieved by my wife holding me down instead of letting me pull out. Now I am a father although I did not want to be, at least not yet.
The baby screams, the baby cries, it seems all the baby does is things which exacerbate my chronic headaches. I feed it, it cries, I burp it, it cries, it seems like it cries just to hear itself scream.
My wife bitches about chores and talks about "how she works" because she just started a summer job. Her job's income goes to into her bank. She doesn't pay the bills, we aren't flipping a single bill. I am paying all the bills. Yet she thinks that her working somehow puts her at a level in which she should be doing considerably less housework. I don't see how. If it were not for my income, there would be no house for her to work in. I do all the major mechanical/plumbing-related fixes myself.
Her mother (who also just started working) is constantly bitching about how I don't help enough around the house. I don't give a shit. I don't seek her approval and could care less. I've never been a big family man. The only family I feel really close to is my old man. My legitimate blood-related father.
When I am paying out well over $1,000 a month on bills and my wife does not pay anything out for bills. You know my wife is so thoughtless that when I filled out the paperwork for federal assistance during my school semester in which I work two 12-hour shifts she sat on the paperwork for nearly an entire month. The house is in her and her father's names even though I'm the one paying the mortgage, and it is appriased for taxes at a much higher value than it is worth. I hired a company who did all the paperwork to get our taxes lowered. All she had to do was show up for a meeting. She was not working, had nothing to do. Did she show up on time? FUCK NO! She comes home fucking 20 minutes late and I'm livid. We drive to the fucking and wait 5 minutes for a piece of shit elevator. Then we show up in the office and are 8-12 minutes late and the person had left already. So I had to hire a lawyer for $100 because my wife is too irresponsible to show up on time.
Lately I've been out of work for awhile due to headaches and dizziness. I still am the one flipping the bills. But because I am home her and her mother assume it is now my sole responsibility to do everything and they bitch and complain when I dont get off my dizzy ass and take 30 minutes to do a job my wife can do in 5 minutes.
Where is the gratitude? For what I'm dishing out to sustain my wife and daughter, I could be living in my own house with a weekly maid who comes and does everything except wash the laundry. My mistake for thinking "love" meant happiness.
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